I awoke at 6:30. Yesterday my big toe hurt a little; today it was killing me and, come to find out, I am struggling to walk (and Dr. Google diagnosed me with gout, which is a bit deflating, not going to lie). The dog was very sluggish this morning, which caused me to worry until she finally decided it was time to wake up and want to go walk right that instant (and don’t forget the toe). She got a very short walk.
I got to the office and went to update the printer firmware that I’ve been meaning to update for months but kept forgetting to bring a USB cable with me. I went to the printer, and could not for the life of me remember what I set the administrator pin to. I spent 20-30 minutes kicking myself, trying to find how to factory reset the printer, and then finally remembering the incredibly simple and easy to remember pin that I set up.
THANKFULLY the firmware update went without a hitch and Google Cloud Print set up super easy.
That gets me to about 20 minutes ago. I don’t want to do anything. The office is cold – I really thought we were done with needing the heat last week – and my toe is still killing. I’m out of filtered water and the tap water is questionable most days. I think I slept well – Nora was complaining about storms and I’ll tell you, I have no recollection of a storm last night – and I have caffeine in my system, but I feel exhausted and all I want to do is curl back up in bed and try again tomorrow.
I have work to do. I hadn’t even considered Sunday in a concrete way until right before I typed this sentence. Computer games and distractions are calling my name, and it would be so easy to succumb to that temptation and get nothing done today.
I was ready to walk out the door and go to lunch WAY early when something just kind of starting gnawing at me:
Sometimes we get to the point where there is too much to do and we just don’t know which task to tackle first. Sometimes there is a LOT of things that are outside of your hands and you are just twiddling your thumbs, waiting for it to others to take action so you know where you stand. Sometimes you just can’t focus and the office you actually kinda like becomes oppressive and draining.
Sometimes you just want to curl up and give up for no particular reason.
Do something. Do anything.
That’s part of why this blog is a thing for me. It’s something real, tangible, helpful to do. Is it the work I have to accomplish today? No, no it is not. Is it going to impress some church looking at my PIF? Very unlikely.
Is it something that I did, that I accomplished, that I can say to myself that I was capable of working on? Absolutely, and I can already feel my motivation coming back and getting my mind ready to do the work after lunch.
I don’t know, maybe I’ll post it and take it down tomorrow, but for me, those two words kind of got me out of the rut and back onto the path of accomplishing actual work today.